Life at 40

Is it really true? Have I really crossed the threshold into my 40's? How did this happen?

Am I really married? Do I really have two little girls? A house? Yes, it's all true. I, Scott Jacobson, have become a grown up without realizing that it happened. As I sit in my rented room in Billerica, MA I ponder how much things have changed in the last 20 years, 10 years, 5 years, 1 year and even since last week. In an upcoming post, I'll share my story of why and how I have come to be in a rented room in Massachusetts while my wife and children await in Essex, Vermont as our kitchen undergoes so much needed renovation. My wife, Beth, is "over the moon" with excitement at this event, while I look at pictures and feel a sense of excitement as well. I didn't think it would be genuine excitement, but it's kinda cool. What's even cooler is that Beth is so damn jazzed.

It's like being on HGTV, as Beth actually told me about the "big reveal". Meanwhile, I sit alone in my room that I've quickly fashioned into a college dorm. Posters adorn the wall and a small refrigerator contains sustenance such as diet soda and spreadable cheese. It's just so surreal. I know that's a cliche, but it's simply the best way to describe it.

All that matters, however, is that I love my wife and my kids. Being a father has changed me for sure. I no longer think only of myself despite a few moments here and there. Wow. 40. Hello.